Run for it!

Trust is an emotion. 
Emotions are unsafe. 
Unsafe means helpless. 
Helplessness my biggest fear.

But trust is also passion.
A powerfull feeling of comfort.
Freedom to be oneself.
Free to be a woman.
Free, to feel the desires of a man.
It is empowering & extremely feminine.
The utter core of femininity.

But to me it has been so much more safe to build up walls.
Thinking they would keep me safe,
but I have learned that
even if they do
they will prevent me from feeling.
Creating the inability to truly develope emotions.

Struggle

Being taught that a male over oneself is humiliating.
Feeling a man ferociously demanding this,
against ones will
deludes the understanding 
that having a male over you is a utmost natural state.

Trusting,

that he can control himself & his desires.
For him to be touched by his woman
feel her softness
how fragile she is
for her to embrace him at night,
doesn't make him weak or her succuming.

It is a womans gift to give her man balance & pleasurable fulfillment.
Just as it is his to give safety & satisfaction.

Losing control? No -giving it up willingly for something higher!

So I'm staying. No more running